..#StarsDanceTour After

All I can say is, I had an amazing time. I shall never forget this. I never thought I'd be able to see her in concert and I have. Thank you God. Her speech during the concert touched me, I cried. I love her so much. I'm so glad my boyfriend and I got to experience this. Back in March for Demi. 

I love you Selena Marie Gomez. 😘💕

#StarsDanceTour Before

So today is finally the day my boyfriend and I go to Selena Gomez's #StarsDanceTour in Fairfax, VA. I'm so excited but nervous AF cus I've never driven to VA before. Hell I don't go past Arundel mills for real. I just don't like driving far, especially to places I don't know / never been to. My boyfriend will be with me so we should be good. We're going to have to go back to Fairfax in March for a Demi Lovato concert. Excited about that. Thank you god. 🙏💕

Farewell...For Now?

I'm going to take a break from writing blogs. Who knows how long it'll be but honestly, do y'all even care? Exactly. So I'll be back when I'm back, if I decide to even come back. But until then...

 



That's That Shit I Don't Like

• Slow Drivers
• Liars
• Bad Movies
• Horrible Music
• Conceited Motherfuckers
• Cheaters / Home wreckers
• Horrible Actors
• People Who Talk ALOT
• Stupid, Annoying People
• When My Stuff Is Taken Without My Permission
• Rude, Ignorant People
• Being Told Shit I Already Know
• Rain Everyday / Inclement weather
• My Self-Esteem
• Loud People
• Slow Internet / Phone
• Spending my own Money

I'll write more as they come to me, maybe.

Bullying Is For Bitches.

Bullying is somewhat of a hard topic to talk about or even to think about. I don't like or approve bullying of any sort. I hate bullying. I've been bullied, honestly, who hasn't? oh that's right, the cool kids, the pretty girls, the jocks, the popular people, the people that look like celebrities. Its all a popularity contest and a beauty contest and it makes me sick. Just because you don't look like a celebrity or you don't look like this or that, you're not welcomed or you're just not right for this or that. Because you're not straight, you'll be made fun of -_- People, mainly kids/teens, have KILLED themselves because they were being bullied so much or so badly. It should NEVER have to come to that. That breaks my heart hearing about that. What if it was your little sister, brother, cousin, YOUR child that was getting bullied and decided to end their life because they couldn't take it anymore?? How would you feel? What would you do to bring justice to them?

So I'm watching the movie "Bully" that came out in 2011 and I'm already crying. I'll come back after it's over..............Honestly, I can not watch this movie without crying....... Alright so I've finished watching it and I just wanna say that movie was like one of the saddest movies for me to watch. Just to see those kids getting bullied so bad, some to the point where they committed suicide. That really breaks my heart. I was literally crying like the majority of the movie. I just don't understand why kids actually feel the need to bully someone else. Like were you not hugged as a child? Did something bad happen to you growing up? Or you just think you're better than everyone else? Well you're NOT! We are all the same. We all just want to make it in this cruel world. What is it that makes these demon kids want to bully anyone? I would honestly like to know that.

What comes from bullying? To make you feel better? Well what about the person you called a "faggot" or a "dyke"? I know bullies can't think they like that. & I'm sure the person being bullied did NOTHING to be bullied. They were just picked on because they were an "easy target". Get TF outta here! Just mind your business and everything will be good. People bully other people because they look a certain way, because they don't look just like everybody else. Well what's it to you?! I'm sure they didn't choose to look the way they do, or have a disability, etc. So why add more attention to something I'm sure they're already self conscious about.

I can tell you one thing, in the future if I find out my children are being bullied, I will do EVERYTHING in my power, that god will allow, to help them. I will be fucking damned if I just sit around and watch this happen. You're just allowing it to continue, nope, not I. I just hope and pray that one day bullying can stop. I know, kind of a longggg ass shot but nothing comes from bullying but low self esteem and an increase in children's and teens deaths. Now who TF wants that? I surely don't. I just wish bullying would stop. It's not adding anything to life but death. As the WWE says, "Don't Be A Bully, Be A Star!"

No, I'm not the prettiest girl, farthest from the "prom queen". I'm not a size 5 with long hair, perfect vision and a whole bunch of friends. I'm not "perfect" or "bad". I'm just me. That's all I can be. But I'm damn sure a good person! & that's all that matters. As my inspiration, Selena Gomez said in her song, Who Says, "I'm NO beauty queen, I'm just beautiful ME!" <3

To any and everyone that's ever bullied me, in any way, shape or form, FUCK YOU! You can't hurt me any longer! :)

 

RIP Cory Monteith

I just want to say I can't and don't believe that Cory is dead. This was just too sudden. He seemed like a good guy. I can only imagine the pain Lea Michele is going through. Her fiancé is now longer here. You will be missed Cory. Glee will never be the same. Your family and friends are in my prayers. Rest In Paradise Cory Monteith.  5.11.82 - 7.13.13, Pray for Lea. I'm so sorry. <3

Life is too damn short. 

WWE Couples - Total Divas

So I wake up this morning to a text from a boyfriend. It's a link to a wrestling website. It said that some couples will be revealed on Total Divas later this month. The only ones I care about are John Cena and Nikki Bella & Justin Gabriel and a new diva Jo-Jo Offerman. Beautiful women and handsome men. I only care about these  couples because I guess you can say I have a crush on Cena and Gabriel. I'm not gonna lie, when I read that, & I read it like 3 times, I was hurt. Still am actually. I think the Justin-Jo-Jo relationship kind of hurts more because I tweeted just yesterday that Cena had to have been with someone, so I actually wanted to know that. But with Justin, I just never thought about him in a relationship so it snuck up on me.

 

My tweet yesterday about Cena.. "What I wanna know is, who is @JohnCena fucking? Cus I will gladly volunteer. He's too good of a person to not be digging into some pussy."

 

So clearly I was expecting him to be with someone, just didn't know who. This may sound stupid but I'm kind of heartbroken -_- yes, heartbroken over someone I've never met before. But you know how it is, crushing on a celebrity, thinking something can come from it. I was just stupid. Stupid to think all these attractive wrestlers were single. & even more stupid to believe that I actually stood any kind of chance with any of them. :/

 

  

 

So anyway, I guess I just wanted to get a little personal with y'all. I'm not gonna sit here and hate on Nikki and Jo-Jo. they're beautiful and everyone deserves to be happy but I can say that I'm hurt (story of my fucking life) but I would like to say that love is a beautiful thing & I am happy for these couples and wish them the best! :)... But I'm still hurt.

 

 

..#RAWBaltimore After

OMG, okay so when we left for #RAWBaltimore, of course we kinda got lost because we don't know our way around Baltimore, TF. So whatever we get there and we're parked in this rinky-dink parking garage, I'm not gonna talk shit cus it only cost $10. So I'm like bet. And the garage wasn't far from the arena. So we get to the arena and go inside, there's 2 lines. We're in the long one at first until we see that the other one was for us. People with floor and stage seats tickets. Yes niggas, we had floor seats, row C seats 9 & 10! Anyway so while we're waiting to get in the actual arena, it's already hype. As we walk in, they're chanting RVD and he wasn't even there last night lol he won't be until Sunday. So we wait and they chant more shit.  Then someone was there dressed as Spider-man and he was break dancing. I had to go to the fucking bathroom but we had to wait until we got in the actual arena -_- how TF they not gonna have a bathroom in the waiting part. -_- Whatevs. So as we're waiting, fucking Bob Backlund comes walking down the ramp with some guy and he comes and shakes hands with almost everyone (he somehow misses us -_-) whatevs. When they start letting people in, they let the people I. The higher seats in first, lucky motherfuckers. So they checked people's signs and females purses, no backpacks were allowed. The whole time they were doing that, I'm like tryna figure out a way to sneak my camera in since video recording isn't allowed -_- so when it was our time, nobody said anything about my camera cus I guess the dude that checked my purse didn't see it so heyyy lol. & they didn't check my sign so *shrugs*.

So when we get into the arena, they scan our tickets and we got to keep them ^_^ so we go straight to the bathrooms. We look around a little, i buy food, he buys 2 things. Then we go to our seats and just wait. 

So 7:30 rolls around and Justin Roberts says that Superstars will begin shortly. During Superstars we saw Darren Young vs. Justin Gabriel and JG won! :) Then it was Zack Ryder vs. Antonio Cesaro and AC won. Then #RAW started! It was just the most amazing experience ever, my first & definitely wont be my last. It was weird cus we couldn't hear the commentators in the arena, only y'all hear them. We were so used to listening to them during the matches but id rather be there live! The atmosphere was just unbelievable. Seeing everybody and hearing all the chants and boos and cheers was just amazing. During the tag team match with Roman Reigns and Seth Rollins vs. Brodus Clay and Albert "Sweet T" Tensai, while The Shied was waiting for them to come out, i called out Roman's name and he looked at me! ^_^ Obviously throughout the whole show, I'm tryna get my sign noticed. i was holding that bitch up, yelling every body's name and shit. i was tryna get noticed, lol.

 if you look back at that show, you can see my boyfriend and i in the audience and my sign! During the Jericho vs. Axel match, i was shouting out "Irvine" cus that's Jericho's real last name lol The Wyatt Family debuted, that was cool. Lights were out & well if you watch wrestling, you saw. When they did that poll to determine if Vickie would keep her job or not, i feel like i was the first on the vote cus i went to it as Jerry Lawler was telling everyone about it. So my boyfriend and i were part of that 25%. When the Wyatt's attacked Kane, they were close to our side but of course tall fucks in front of us stood up so it was harder for us to see. -_- The length the divas matches be on TV was the same length in person, short, lol but it was really good seeing all those beautiful women in person. ;) By the time CM Punk & Orton's match, our phone batteries were dying -_- so we had to reserve shit. Uhm that's pretty much it until the after the show went off the air & we saw that Cena vs. Ryback match. As Cena went to get a table from under the ring, i screamed out "I Love You Cena!" & he looked up at me then went on about his business! ^_^ So the show is over & as everyone is walking out, we're waiting cus we noticed that Justin Roberts was still around, so we went over to him along with other people. We both shook his hand and i got a picture with him! ^_^ The girl next to me said something about twitter & he was like oh you follow me? & she said yea can you follow me then i said it & he just laughed. That shit was funny, lol.

But yea like I've said this was one of the best nights of my life and i shall remember it forever (at least try to). i cant wait until they come back cus I'm hopping on them tickets in a heartbeat! All i can say is, you had to be there. If you've never been, please go! <3

#RAWBaltimore Before..

Well, Well, Well today is the day! It's finally here! Time for Monday Night RAW to come to Baltimore and my boyfriend and I are going! We've been waiting for about like a month or so for this event to happen & it's finally arrived! & I'm super fucking excited! This will be my first WWE event & hopefully not my last. All I can say now is that I am too ready. So excited to see Dolph, Cena, AJ & whoever the fuck else is there! If you're going and you see us there, say what's up! I'll post a #RAWBaltimore After obviously after the event! :)

 

Past Relationships

Relationships. Where the hell do I start. Relationships are fucking tricky. They can be on your side one minute then against you the next. They take a lot of patience to start and even more to maintain. They can drain you, make you think you're crazy. Point blank, they just take a lot out of you but on the other hand, relationships can actually be pleasant, fun, and enjoyable. I'm going to tell you about my past relationships, obviously. The ones that actually mattered.  Instead of using their names, I'll just use their initials.

Relationship 1 - This started when I was in the 9th grade, end of 2006. J.E.S and I started to talk on Myspace, yes Myspace lol. The first freaking night we started going out, he told me he loved me -_- so me not knowing any better, I said it back. Throughout the relationship, it seemed he liked to play games, like when we talked on Myspace, he would have his brother message me to "try to get with me" to fucking test me -_- Douche. Me, him, my cousin & her boyfriend at the time went to the movies, first time going with a guy. First make-out session. Fast forward to February, so he broke up with me like over the phone then the next day, I get to school, I'm crying (sad I know) & my friend asked me what was wrong. So when he came near me, she was like no you can't, blah. I'm talking to him like so are we broken up or not, he said no. So later that day, after school, at my grandmothers house, he "officially" broke up with me. He tried to get back with me sometime later but some shady shit was going down so I said no. So RIP to that relationship (December '06 to February '07). Oh yea & he was my first kiss. :/

Relationship 2 - This one started the same year as the breakup from my first relationship, so 2007. Uhm so with this one, E.A.E and I met in school. We didn't really see each other the first month we started going out, why? idfk. I feel like this whole relationship was a waste of time for real. I don't regret anything but still. At the time, my friends were telling me that he wasn't right for me, I need to end it, blah, etc. But of course I didn't listen. I felt I could change him -_- HUGE mistake, I know that now. I have NO power to change anyone but myself. Uhm I know now that I did not love HIM, I loved the IDEA of him. He lasted longer than the first one so I guess I kinda got used to having a boyfriend. I let that shit blindside me :/ Knowing what I know now, I definitely would've broken up with him first. Too much heartache on my end. & I was kinda jealous, still am but *shrugs* So this break-up was the most fucked up out of the 3. He broke up with me over Myspace, yes Myspace again loll That shit came out of NOwhere, I was not expecting it at all. I read the message and INSTANTLY started crying. I messaged my best friend at the time telling her what happened. She had words for him, lol. Thank you girl :) then I told my mom, just cus she would've found out eventually. I freaking hated him for that bullshit ass break-up but honestly thinking back, it needed to be done *shrugs* But I'm so over it now. I think about my relationship with him and laugh, shit's funny now. So RIP to that relationship (July '07 - February '08).

It's amazing how young, dumb and naïve I used to be *shrugs* We gotta grow and learn somehow.

Relationship 3 - This final one started, again the same year as the second break-up so in 2008. This one ready be short as shit cus nothing was wrong with this one, lol. O.R.J and I started talking on the Internet. meetme.com formally known as myyearbook.com. Bad idea I know but times were a little more innocent back then, kind of, not really. So he asked me out over the phone, I said yes and we seem to be inseparable since. Uhm I don't really have anything bad to say about this relationship. Everything was good. He loved me, I loved him & that was that. He was good to me, vice versa. That's about it I guess. We just stopped talking and I guess that was our break-up. But on then myyearbook.com, I wrote to him saying idk what's going on but I cant do this anymore. He didn't get it but called me, I told him about it, so yea that was that. For a minute we were good, it was as if nothing changed. Until time came along, then we really stopped talking. *shrugs* So RIP to that relationship (September '08 - February '09).

What's with me, February and break-ups? haha.
Well that's the stories of my past relationships. I have ZERO kinds of animosity towards my exes. I wish them the complete best with their future endeavors.
IT IS WHAT IT IS.

 

Father's Day?

So obviously it's father's day and if you know me, you know that I don't have a father. Obviously I do but it's just easier to say I don't. He wasn't around growing up which means he isn't around now. That nigga can go suck a dick for all I care. I don't care for him one bit. I guess it still hurts that he was / is never around but there's nothing I can do about it. He chose to be a deadbeat dad. Guess he was man enough to make my brother and I with our mom but he just wasn't man enough to stick around to actually help raise us, to be in our lives. That's cool, That's on him. Some people just don't deserve too many words. So for the people that actually has their dads in their lives, cherish that shit. Not everyone has that. Happy Father's Day to the fathers that actually takes care of, loves, acknowledges, supports, etc their kids. REAL MEN!

5 Guys!

MY LOVE FOR 5 GUYS IS CRAZY. NOT REALLY BUT WHATEVS. I FIRST FOUND OUT ABOUT THIS PLACE WHEN MY FRIEND KIRA WOULD GO THERE AND I WOULD BE WITH HER. I HAD BEEN WITH HER TWICE BEFORE GOING ON MY OWN. I DON'T BELIEVE I HAD EVER HEARD OF IT BEFORE SO I OWE HER ALOT. ^_^ IF YOU HAVEN'T BEEN, YOU NEED TO! THEIR FOOD IS JUST AMAZING, MOUTH-WATERING, FUCKING DELICIOUS. ITS NOT LIKE MCDONALDS OR BURGER KING -_- TYPICAL ASS FOOD, NOTHING EXTREMELY SPECIAL. 5 GUYS IS JUST A NEW TYPE OF FAST FOOD. NOW OF COURSE ITS UNHEALTHY, ITS FAST FOOD! WHAT'D YOU EXPECT?! JUST LIKE MCDONALDS, WENDYS, HARDEES, TACO BELL, BURGER KING, EVERYTHING GOOD IS USUALLY UNHEALTHY. SUCKS. EVEN THOUGH ITS KINDA FAR, ANY CHANCE I GET, I WILL GO TO 5 GUYS. MY BOYFRIEND, AUNT AND MYSELF LOVE IT. IF YOU HAVEN'T ALREADY, TRY IT & YOU DETERMINE.

 

 

Tongue Adventures

So yesterday, my best friend and I had a date to get tattoos. We were excited as shit. It would've been her first tattoo, my 4th. WE WERE FUCKING HYPE! ^_^ We went to Black Lotus in Severn. (www.blacklotustattoos.com) So when we get there, they said they weren't doing tattoos that day -_- We were blown like a motherfucker! Least I was cus I REALLY wanted tattoos. But the lady said they were doing piercings today (yesterday) so we looked at each other like we're tryna get our tongues pierced. We had a new mission, getting our tongues pierced and she also got spider bites! Go figure, this bitch hasn't had any piercings other than her ears and for her first time, she gets 3! lol. So she goes first, he does her tongue first, of course I'm watching the whole time, he was ready do mine next. So he's talking her through it, saying what he's gonna do and all that good stuff. blah blah, she has 3 new piercings, same with me but with one new piercing. The guy that did our piercings was cool af. He has his tongue split which is soo crazy to me but still kinda cool.

 

(Not Him, Just A Picture)

 

I'm gonna be honest, I was a little upset cus she didn't want me to hold her hand while she got hers, lol. I'm like -_- what tf are best friends for then :( lol oh well. When we went to eat at the food court at the mall, we were struggling like a motherfucker, lol, smh. It's so hard to eat, at least for us/me. & It's still hard to eat. For me, when I got home, it started to hurt and pretty much hurt throughout work (Fuck Work) :/ So I'll just have to get used to it cus I've always wanted my tongue pierced and now I have :)

Grave Robbers

So all this talk about music artists doing songs with other music artists that are dead is kind of pissing me off. Drake and Chris Brown doing songs with Aaliyah -_- TF. I don't know why it pisses me off but it does. I keep hearing that artists has songs and material that is unreleased and never heard of and all that shit and I think that is bullshit. I'm not saying it's impossible, I'm just saying I don't like it. So after all these years, that person just out of nowhere has material that no one has ever heard of -_- & some people do songs with these dead people and their unreleased tracks. I just don't like it. Sorry, not sorry. Akon did a song with Michael Jackson, everybody and their mama did a song with Tupac and Biggie, now it's Aaliyah. I'm pretty sure there's LOTS more I just don't know of and frankly, honestly, I just don't care. I just think it's stupid. & then these DEAD artists be dropping albums shit -_- Really? Like really though? & then that hologram shit! o_O that's just fucking creepy & then years after they're dead, other news about their lives come to light. Like Michael Jackson, Whitney Houston, whoever. They don't even have to be in the music industry and the media has something to say about them, they say "new" shit about Marilyn Monroe -_- come on, she's been dead for..51 years. 51 fucking years and NOW motherfuckers wanna say shit about her marriages or career or whatever -_- Let it go! She's gone, everybody is gone. They're not here to defend themselves. Like where TF was this information when they were ALIVE?! When it was relevant! Bad mouthing the dead, yea that's real fucking cool. -_- Let these people Rest In Peace!

Gamer Girl

So apparently I'm a gamer, says my boyfriend. I don't seem to think so but sometimes I do since I do play video games, obviously. If you wanna get technical I started playing video games when I was younger. I don't remember when or what age but I would go to the store and play the game demos they had there, lol. I'll say I was about 8, 9, 10ish, idfk, lol. I guess that's when I first got into it. Then when I was a little older, I got a xbox, the original one but I don't think I really played it like that. I think I had one game for it -_- That shit stayed in my closet for who knows how long -_- don't ask why I got it if I wasn't gonna actually use it, idfk. But after that, I got a GameCube, I actually played that. I still have it though! If you're trying to buy it, get at me! lol fareal though. I still have the games I had for it. But I don't play that anymore obviously since I'm trying to sell it, lol.

Watching my boyfriend play his Xbox and me playing his too, I started to fall in love with it and wanted one sooo bad. So Christmas 2011, he bought me a Xbox 360! I was sooo shocked, I was not expecting that shit at all! We had talked about me getting one once I saved enough money but it seemed like I never had enough money. He told me to close my eyes, when I opened, there it was, a red and black (my favorite colors) Gears Of Wars Xbox 360. I'm not gonna front, I cried. It was exactly what I wanted and this nigga done surprised me with it :) He also got me like 1 or 2 games to go with it when I first got it. Then throughout the months, I began to buy my own games, my brother bought a couple and of course my boyfriend bought a few for me. Ever since then, I've fallen even more in love with it.

I've had it for a year and 5 months now and I love it. I have over 11,000 gamer points. Gamer points consist of how many achievements you get for each game. Achievements will vary for each game. I'm sure you know how a Xbox works. When I was younger, I used to really only play racing games cus that's what they had at the stores, lol. Nowadays I like to play fighting, shooting, strategy, shit like that. I'll just list a few games I have and actually play cus I have quite a few and only play a handful, lol.

• Sims 3 (got all achievements)
• WWE '13
• Max Payne 3
• Saint's Row The Third (notice a pattern, lol)
• CSI (all 3, beat one)
• Dance Central 1, 2 & 3
• Minecraft

My boyfriend got me on the first 4 games. I am soo in love with Sims, they're all my babies, I'm soo excited for Sims 4! The wrestling one is self-explanatory, he got me on wrestling so of course he got me on the games. With MP3, I really only like playing multiplayer, more fun to me than single player. Now that I think about it, that's like the only game I like playing multiplayer, along with Wheel Of Fortune. SR3 is just fucking awesome, I'm excited for the fourth even though they kinda doing the most. The show CSI is awesome even though I don't watch it anymore so of course I had to get the games. My brother got me on the show. & the DC's are fun because it's for Kinect. I bought my Kinect like last year sometime.

Recently I bought a Nintendo 3DS XL, a red one of course. I call it a DX (in honor of wrestling). This is fun too. Granted I only have one game for it but I be playing TF outta that game, lol. It's a fashion game, I'm a Boutique Manager and I love every second of it. So I guess I am a gamer and that's cool. I enjoy being one, it's fun, but sometimes it does get boring. Since I don't be having anything else to do, I don't have a fucking life -_- So if you have a Xbox 360, send me your gamertags, I just might add you :)



Youtube Sensatons That Make Life BETTER!

So I'm sure you all have people on youtube that you love to watch regularly. Every time they post a new video, you're right up in that bitch, supporting them. That's how I am. Youtube Sensations just makes you feel good. They make you feel like you can just pick up a camera and become one yourself (don't tell me you haven't thought of that, shit I have). I'm gonna list some of the Youtube Sensations I like to watch. I'm sure you've heard of most of them but if you haven't, please feel free to watch their videos, like, subscribe to them, like NOW cus they're fucking awesome and hilarious while some are serious :)

 

• Jenna Marbles
• Joe Santagato / SantagatoTV
• hotdamnirock
• Mark Dice
• Jerry LaVigne JR.
• Spoken Reasons
• Emmanuel N Phillip Hudson
• YoMuscleBoii
• SupereeeGO
• Lindsey Atkinson
• nigahiga
• ERB
• Twerk Team
• ijustine
• LaToya Forever

Some I watch more than others but neither the less I hope all of these youtubers continue to keep making videos that make me smile and inform me about things in life. & I hope they can do more than make youtube videos, like be on TV and movies, such like that. I'd appreciate that. They all have a special place in my heart :) & if you know of some I didn't list, please let me know!

 

 

My Mom

Well it's officially Mother's Day. I actually had something prepared to say about her but I had second thoughts about it. It was kind of a bit harsh BUT it was the FUCKING TRUE! Unfortunately I have a heart and decided not to post what I really want to say because I don't wanna hear people's mouths about how MY MOM is and how I feel about her. You wouldn't fucking understand. God has blessed and cursed me with being a good person :/ so all I'm going to say is HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY to all the mothers out there that actually take care of and love their children and support them! <3

 

Racism & Prejudice.

Today's topic is clearly about racism and prejudice. Let's start with the definitions, shall we? Wiki says "Racism is usually defined as views, practices and actions reflecting the belief that humanity is divided into distinct biological groups called races and that members of a certain race share certain attributes which make that group as a whole less desirable, more desirable, inferior or superior." Wiki also says "Prejudice refers to prejudgment: i.e. making a decision before becoming aware of the relevant facts of a case. In recent times, the word has come to be most often used to refer to preconceived, usually unfavorable, judgments toward people or a person because of gender, social class, age, disability, religion, sexuality, race/ethnicity, language, nationality or other personal characteristics."

Unfortunately racism still exists, after all these fucking years, go figure! -_- I'm sure we've all gone through some type of unnecessary racism in your life and maybe you've said some racist shit, without even realizing it sometimes. It's life, whatever but when you start to go overboard, you're just crossing the line. Like you just need to check yourself and go fall off a cliff or something cus you're worthless and unnecessary to life. Unfortunately I happen to know someone who is extremely racist and it is just embarrassing cus she would never say any of the shit she says to the race of people she hates. Yes she hates one race in particular. Yesterday she was just going off in the most unflattering, disgusting way that she's ever done. That shit was making me sick. She makes me sick.

Now I'm gonna be honest with you all and this may cost me views or whatever but it's whatever, I'm racist BUT it's towards EVERYBODY, not just one race or religion. I don't like any race, I hate everyone equally. Granted, I just hate people period so I don't know if you'll consider that racist but I just hate people, they're stupid. But even though I hate people, I still entertain the idea of thinking that people can actually be smart. I still hate the idea of racism, it's just so stupid. It's 2013, GROW TF UP! Like seriously, grow up.

 

Hating on one race just because one person from that race fucked you over is stupid. That's how the person is that I know. I'm pretty much the main reason she doesn't like the one race is because one loser fucked her over. She is so childish. I hate so much that I'm the seed of her. :/ All Ima ask is, what does being racist and saying nasty rascal comments to people bring you? Does it bring you joy? Does calling someone a "nigger", "beaner", "honky", "chink eyes", "canuck" make you happy? Sometimes unless you're telling jokes, there's no point for that. Ain't nobody got time for that. If you're racist, you're a bully, simple as that. If you're racist, I hope you grow up soon and learn that this world consists of many different people from different backgrounds, religions, races, orientations, etc!



My 2 Futures.

As you can tell by the title, I shall be talking about the 2 futures I could either way see my life going..

• The first dream that I have is that I am famous but I'm actually famous for something, not like the Kardashian family. A part of me just wants to be rich and famous like it just looks like a blast. Like I don't even really know what I would wanna be famous for, like I see myself doing EVERYTHING under the sun as my career. I've wanted to be a singer (even though I cant sing and I'm shy -_-), I've wanted to be an actress (& I still do), I've wanted to be a model, both runway & like a video vixen/model type of job, lol. I've also wanted to be a wrestler, or in the wrestling industry in any way. I've also wanted to be a youtube sensation. & like almost anything else you can think of. Kinda crazy I know, to be thinking any of that could actually happen. Hey, its my dreams, what can i say? I actually still wanna be an actress like seriously but I just feel like I wouldn't succeed and again, I'm shy :( I also want to win the lottery (refer back to 'Work' post), for some odd reason, I have such good faith that I'll win the lottery & I just want it to stay that way. I like being positive and having positive energy in my life. People who are on my side mean so much to me. Oh yea, I also wanna be a director, like for movies.
• The second dream I have, well its not really a dream, more like a backup plan if the whole being famous thing doesn't happen. So this one's simple, not as fancy and the hoopla as my actual dream. In this one, I just see me and my boyfriend being married, starting/having a family, living in hopefully a house, we're just on our own shit. & in this life, my career would be...IDFK :/ In this life too, I also don't know what I would do. I want to do EVERYTHING I can. I could see myself being a CSI (Crime Scene Investigator), that's my main one honestly. I love the show & it just seems like something I could be good at, even though I can't really stand being around dead bodies and shit, lol. A part of me always wanted to be an entrepreneur. Ever since my entrepreneurship class in high school, even though it was A LOT of work to prepare a business plan, I like to think of the end product of me being the owner of something. I recently "decided" I wanted to be a photographer, so I can add that to the list. I just pretty much wanna do everything that I can get my hands on. I can do anything I set my mind to, right?

I just want to be able to do something that makes me happy and to able to support my family in the future.

What are some of your dreams and aspirations? :)

Backstreet's Back Alright!

True story --> So I was just on twitter and the Backstreet Boys tweeted that it's been awhile since they've done a follow spree and to tweet them #BSBFollowMe if you wanted a followback so naturally I tweet what they said. I did it twice then I saw in my mentions 'backstreetboys followed you' and I was like WTF! I didn't believe, I still don't but I just wanted to share that with you all. This means soo much to me, I love them sooo much, have for many years. Thank You. (Refer back to Boy Bands post) :) @backstreetboys

 

 

Voltage

So I went to the club, Voltage, for the first time last night and I had a blast. My friend, Shay, invited me to go with her and her friends and I'm glad I did. So on our way there, it was a full car. We were squished like a motherfucker lol. So we went to Shay's friend, RJ's house and chilled for a little bit, waiting for his friends. We're chilling, listening to music and everyone takes a shot. I sat that one out. One girl was supposed to video tape it but she fucked up lol so they all took another shot, I joined in that one. Rumchata are so gross to me. Yuk, just thinking about them makes me wanna vomit. Anyway when everyone arrives, we try to figure out who will go with whom. Fast forward to on the way to the club, we had to pick up one more person, may I remind you we're already like 8 people deep lol we goes hard out this bitch. So we get to the club and the line to get in is long, I'm thinking omg this is gonna take forever but it didn't. So we're in line, Slim and I are in the back of the crew, I'm asking her so do I pay here or later, blah blah, I just had to show my ID and I got a wristband. As we were walking up to the line, I'm thinking to myself 'omg they patting people down' as I text my boyfriend that, he was like yea that's how it was when I went for the first time. So after I get my wristband, I was prepared to get patted down but I guess girls don't get patted down lol. So I was good. So we go in and pay, show our school ID's whatever and its like a whole new world in there. Remember, this was my first time in a club. Lights are flashing and going from light to dark, people dancing wildly, bars, all that. Fast forward, after Dancing since I've been there, it's hot as fuck and I get a nosebleed :/ shit sucked and very inconvenient. -_- but I fixed it and it was cool. So towards the end of the night, I run into my crush, the beautiful Danielle, I was shocked as shit to see her fine ass. I believe that was the first time I've seen her in person since high school o_o but anyway it was good seeing her. Almost everyone was shitfaced and ended up being the DD for Shay's car, keep in mind, I don't know my way around Baltimore so I needed guidance. Shay is done and laughing about everything, harder for her to give me guidance lol anyway I made it home safe as did everyone else. & I got to sneak my friend in so she could use the bathroom, lol. I just wanted to share my first club experience with you all. Hopefully I plan on getting more personal from now on :)

 

What are some good clubs you like to go to?

P.S. -- You can check out Shay on facebook.com/Lindsey.Shay.Atkinson
like her fan page on facebook.com/Lindsey.shay.atkinson3
follow her on twitter @shaydoron
subscribe to her page,  youtube.com/lindseyatkinson3 :)
&
You can check out Danielle on facebook.com/DanielleMonk
follow her on twitter @YankyDoodleDani
in Lil B's video "Twurk It Like Dat" :)

Favorite TV Shows

So being born in the 90's means having the best TV shows and music. Compared to shit nowadays, '90s music and shows were heaven! Without further ado, I shall list some of my favorite TV shows as a kid and growing up. The * next to some shows were my Absolute Favorites..

• Zoom*
• All That*
• Degrassi*
• Pepper Ann
• Recess
• That's So Raven*
• Lizze McGuire*
• So Weird*
• Even Stevens
• Are You Afraid Of The Dark?*
• Goosebumps*
• The Big Comfy Couch*
• Out Of The Box*
• Courage The Cowardly Dog*
• The Magic School Bus*
• The Little Mermaid
• My Wife & Kids
• Sister Sister*
• Rolie Polie Olie
• Boy Meets World*
• Sailor Moon
• Pokemon
• Cow & Chicken
• The Powerpuff Girls
• Rugrats*
• Dragon Tales
• Catdog
• Saved By The Bell
• Full House*
• Arthur*
• The Amanda Show*
• Sabrina, The Teenage Witch

I believe that's it. What the heck, now I'll list shows I watch nowadays..

• The Secret Life Of The American Teenager (ending)
• Pretty Little Liars
• Awkward
• Melissa and Joey
• The Vampire Diaries
• Glee
• Once Upon A Time
• Whitney
• Ice Loves Coco
• Tia & Tamera
• iCarly, Victorious, Wizards Of Waverly Place, Suite Life On Deck, RIP. (ended)
• That's 70's Show (few years ago)
• Reno 911 (few years ago)
• Girl Meets World (whenever/if ever that starts)
• Total Divas (when it starts)

& I believe that's it for that. What's some shows you like to watch? :)



Love vs. Sex

Sex is an unpredictable thing and a condom is what you must bring. Without it there can be consequences, unwanted pregnancies and incurable diseases. It pleases them you've agreed to forgo it, such a bandit. When disaster occurs, you're no longer lovers, nothing else matters. Now you're trying to put back together the pieces of your once innocent life. But on the other side, sex can be a very pleasurable experience, in an instance you're connected with someone more than you'll ever realize. At that moment, while you look into their eyes, they're your prize, no one denies. Your body fills with deepen sensations, you're momentarily smitten, you're body weakened. You crave more and more everyday as if it's your birthday in every way.

Love is a beautiful experience to encounter, no other feeling can counter. From strangers to lovers in due time, thousands of emotions are going through your mind. You're inclined to be with this person for the rest of your life. You give up the nightlife, the wild life to have a wife, to be a good wife. You will strive to help that person with whatever you can, be a better (wo)man. You'll always have their back, such a kodak. 2 hearts intertwined into one, your souls speak, you're in heaven, They bring you up, never down, to them you wear a crown. They never wanna see you sport a frown. Like a tattoo, their touch warms you. You think about them and your heart cant stop smiling, as well as your face, you give a gentle embrace to let them know 'I love you'.

Some people mistake sex for love. Someone may hit you the way you love to be hit during that time of passion, In that spot that'll have you in a sex trance. Only that isn't love, you just love their private parts during that time. Love takes time, communication, commitment, honesty, trust, spontaneity, compromise, patience and whatever else you believe true endless love consist of. People take both love and sex for granted. They just take them both so lightly. Throwing around the word 'love' like it's nothing. Passing your snatch and dicks around like there isn't consequences. Whether it's a disease or someone gets their feelings hurt. Love and Sex are 2 entirely different things and should be treated as such.

 

Former Teacher, Still Crushing

When I was in high school, I had a crush on one of my teachers, who shall remain nameless. If you actually know me, you know who it is, considering if I actually told you or not. Well It's been 3 years since I graduated high school and I kinda sorta still think about him & i may or may not have dreams about him. Not sex dreams or anything like that but he's just in my dreams. He's clearly made an impact in my life, otherwise I wouldn't still be thinking of him. I mean I want to invite him to my wedding for goodness sake! If I could go back and relive his classes in high school, I would because I didn't really appreciate them at the time. He's just an attractive, funny, kind-hearted, successful man and I appreciate him for helping me through my later years of high school and I wish him the best of luck with everything. :)

The Power of Love

Love isn't about how often you say it, although that is important, it's about how you show it and the experiences spent. No signs of love will leave you more tense. Density building in your heart drives you to drift apart. Saying "I Love You" can make someone's day, doesn't matter if you're bi, straight or gay. Being with the one you love should bring joy to your life, light to your eyes. Lies should never apply, you should be able to rely on them, through thick and thin. Good or bad, even if you suddenly become a mom and dad.

Love is all about compromise and making each other feel good. Building each other up, never misunderstood. You get into a fight, scream and shout but you talk it out and you know without a doubt that person is the one for you. Break through all the bullshit and never quit on them cus your chemistry is something to fight for. You pour your heart out to them every chance you get and they do the same, only wanting to change your last name.

Awkward.

Okay so I know I'm kind of late but my brother recently got me on the show 'Awkward' and I kind of sort of fell in deep like with it. It's just a cool show. Little more drama-ish than funny to me but it's still funny. The main girl, Jenna (Ashley Rickards), is so pretty along with her bff Tamara (Jillian Reed). Her and the guidance counselor then Vice President are the funniest, to me. But anyway, I just wanted to share that I've recently started watching it & I give it 2 thumbs up. :)

Boy Bands

One of my guilty pleasures is boy bands. I love boy bands! They will always have a special place in my heart. The first 2 boy bands I fell in love with were Backstreet Boys and NSYNC. I started to like them, I'll say in the late 90's then started to get into other types of music. So then, like a few years ago, One Direction shows up outta nowhere. You can imagine how excited I was. I love their music, I bought both of their albums & I'm sure I'll continue to buy them.

So with me growing up listening to Backstreet Boys and NSYNC, that would make me a 90's baby! '92 to be exact. I'm so glad BSB got themselves back together, all 5 of them. I haven't been really keeping up with their music but I'll always love them. They were my all time favorite, between NSYNC. They just spoke to me more.

My favorite member from BSB was AJ. When I was younger, I would've done some serious loving to him, lol. Since he's married with a kid now, he's out of the question. My favorite member from NSYNC was Jc & Justin. My favorite member from 1D is Zayn. He's just hot. I'm sure these will be the only 3 boy bands I'll ever like but you can never be too sure.

I’m typing this at 11:40 am on Christmas 2k18...
I now fuck with Imagine Dragons heavy. 

Pray For Boston

Okay so I'm sure you've all heard and seen what happened in Boston. Well my opinion on that is, I feel that stuff like that is happening every few months or so mowadays. Stuff where people are getting hurt and dying. In about 3 maybe 4 months something else horrible will happen. Just in a Different state with a different situation. This time it was a terriost bombing at a marathon. In a few months, something will happen in like North or South Carolina, just some random fucking state, random fucking situation & the government / president is only gonna tell us what we want to hear. They're not gonna tell us straight up like 'yo if shit like this keeps happening we're all gonna die like soon'. Don't get me wrong, it's a horrible situation, they all are but I kinda don't feel extremely bad because something else bad is just gonna keep happening again and again and again. This is just my opinion on this.

The End, 3/22/11

Sometimes things coming to an end is a good thing, it leads to something better. But things that end with a bang just stirs trouble. You hear a rumble and you know you're at war. Destructive weapons only cause more gore. With everyone at combat, you hardly notice the temperature changing. Acting like wombats, you keep rearranging your mind to assemble some reasonable explanation. Incurable sickness is what you stumble upon. Could it have transferred from a pond? All you know is that everything and everyone is gone. This must be it, you see bodies in pits, they've been hit. Nothing to tend to, this is the end to everything, can't make amends too.

 

There are remains all over the place, damaged and dead. So much pain is surrounded, people have been pounded in. Flames have been set, you just let them burn. Because of the explosions, there are little to no survivors, nothing like this is worth to die for. Things will never be the same, don't know who to blame. This place feels so empty to me but has plenty disaster for miles to see. This place is extra silent, things just came and went, can't even pitch a tent, everything has a dent. This means the birth of something new will happen, you ask when? But no one knows. Our old-fashioned life is now for the new and dashing.

 

Junk Food & Beverages

I know we all love junk food and beverages but is it really worth getting out of shape and dying for? Fast Food restaurants are constantly creating new ideas for food and drinks. Yes they may taste good but you know damn well it's not good for you. I know sometimes you just need something to eat real quick & a fast food restaurant is your best option but it doesn't have to be.

I recently saw a commercial for Burger King, I think they're doing something different, but one of the names for a meal or whatever was called "I can't see my toes". -_- Like really, are you kidding me. Someone would actually buy something called that. That's what's gonna happen to you if you continue to eat shit like that. & then fast food commercials get celebrities like David Beckham, Sofia Vergara, etc.  to do these commercials for sodas and fast food. It's like they expect us to buy the sodas & food just because they got these high end celebrities in their commercials, eating their food and selling their beverages. You know & some of yall actually do -_-

I understand that fast food, candy & soda can taste fucking delicious but that doesn't mean you should buy them ALL the time. Have a salad once in awhile instead of a McDonalds burger. Have water instead of Pepsi or Coke. Eating mainly fast food nearly everyday isn't gonna do anything for you but make you so out of shape that you won't be able to get out of bed in the morning. It seems like people's life's revolves around snacks, food, candy & soda that aren't healthy.

Candy isn't gonna do anything but give you cavities. Sodas aren't gonna do anything but make you bloated and leave you wanting more. Same with junk food & snacks. Now I'm not saying I'm perfect or anything, I'm just saying We The People don't NEED to always go for junk food and beverages. By no means am I trying to tell anyone what and what not to eat, I'm just saying please be aware that fast food and beverages are not helping us, at all. I'm just tired of seeing people be overweight then complain about it. How about you stop eating Burger King, McDonalds, Wendy's, KFC, Popeye's everyday and actually work out. *shrugs*

Drugs

Alright now this isn't about Heroin, Cocaine, Meth, Crack, none of them big drugs. This will be about Alcohol, Cigarettes and Marijuana. Let's start with the definition of 'drug'. Wiki says "A drug is a substance which may have medicinal, intoxicating, performance enhancing or other effects when taken or put into a human body or the body of another animal and is not considered a food or exclusively a food." Keep that in mind...
 

Alcohol - Must be 21 to buy. Don't drink and drive because you will kill or hurt someone, including yourself. You can die from alcohol poisoning. It impairs your judgment, balance and vision depending on how much you drink. Don't drink while you're pregnant, unless you want your baby to have birth defects. If you drink too much, eventually you'll fuck up your liver. Potentially it can lead to alcoholism if you take it too far, (that's when you're addicted to alcohol). Having too much of different kinds of drinks or just having too much period, you're gonna have a serious hangover, which fucking sucks! I'm sure you've all drank before you were 21, who hasn't?, I'm just saying Alcohol seems dangerous in the long run, yet it's legal. It's advertised as cool and fun & it is BUT not unless you're of age!!

Cigarettes - Must be 18 in order to buy tobacco of any kind. The primary chemical in cigarettes, Nicotine, is very addictive. Same as drinking, smoking while your pregnant isn't such a bright idea. In some places you can't smoke in public places. Smoking can lead to problems with your
heart, liver and lungs. Wiki says "Second-hand smoke has been estimated to cause 38,000 deaths per year, of which 3,400 are deaths from lung cancer in non-smokers. Tobacco use causes more than 5 million deaths per year. On average, smokers die up to 14 years before non-smokers. Again, all these deaths and they're still legal.

Marijuana - Also known as Cannabis. Some say it's a drug, some say it's a plant. It can be used for recreational purposes (for fun) or for medicinal purposes (doctor said so). It is the most commonly used illicit drug. The principal chemical is THC. It makes you hungry, happy and sleepy as Katt Williams said. It can also make you horny, same with alcohol. Some say it makes them paranoid, -_-. Some people think Marijuana is a gateway drug, an open invitation to do stronger drugs and to them I say -_-. Never once have I said or heard anyone say, 'damn this blunt is good BUT you know what would be better?.. some crack.' -__- YOU have a choice of doing other / stronger drugs, not Marijuana. Some say it helps their memory, some say it impairs it. I don't know of anyone that's died from Marijuana, do you? yet it's illegal. There's different names for Marijuana: Herb, Pot, MaryJane, Weed, Chronic, Reefer to name a few. & there are also different kinds of weed: Ganja, Kush, Haze, etc. Personally I feel weed is less harmless than alcohol and cigarettes.

 

 

How do you feel about all of this? Drop a comment. :)

Scary Movies

Okay so I'm excited about this post because I LOVE scary movies, horror films, thrillers, suspenseful movies, whatever you wanna call them, I love them. I also love Possession movies cus I actually believe in possessions. I don't really remember the first scary movie I've watched but I wanna say it was the Halloween franchise. I LOVE Michael Myers. Why? idk, just something about him. I've seen all of the Halloween movies and I love them all except for Halloween 3: Season Of The Witch('82) [had nothing to do with Michael] and Halloween: The Curse Of Michael Myers ('95) [just stupid to me]. If he ever wanted a sidekick, I would be soo perfect for that, lol. I recently saw the original Evil Dead and the new one...to me, the original sucks. I know it came out in 1981 but still -_- I pretty much laughed the whole time. As for with the remake, I was actually scared and I love that. I love being scared while watching scary movies yet I don't, lol, if that makes sense. I just love the whole scary movie feel. The killers are all badasses that can never die. Come on now, lol. Now I guess I'll list some that I've seen or would like to see...

• Halloween (of course)
• Friday The 13th (idk how many I've seen)
• Nightmare On Elm Street (same as Jason)
• Child's Play Franchise
• Saw (saw a few, if you consider them scary)
• Evil Dead 1 (original & remake)
• Texas Chainsaw Massacre (not the originals but the remakes, I've seen)
• Carrie (I guess that's scary *shrugs*)
• The Strangers
• Paranormal Activity (all 4)
• The Hills Have Eyes
• Wrong Turn (the first one I believe)
• Scream (all)
• Jeepers Creepers (both)
• Freddy vs. Jason
• The Exorcism of Emily Rose

Alright that's enough, lol. If you have any suggestions for horror films I should watch, leave a comment! I'm game :)

Wrestling Is REAL.

Now this isn't about High School Wrestling, I don't know anything about that so I don't care about that. This is about Professional Wrestling, mostly WWE and TNA. In case you don't know what they stand for, World Wrestling Entertainment, & Total Nonstop Action but they also go by Impact Wrestling. I'm making this because I am a supportive fan of wrestling, have been since April of 2009, thanks to my boyfriend :) and shall continue as long as they keep entertaining me, lol. Some people say and think that wrestling is fake, which is soo annoying when I hear or see that. -_- Okay, I'll admit, SOME of it is fake but when you see them bleeding and/or they get injured and have to retire because if not, they could seriously hurt themselves, that shit is REAL. Wrestlers have died from brain damage (Chris Beniot) & Owen Hart had an accident during his entrance and passed away. A few of them had heart attacks and died, not really sure if it's from wrestling but still. Stone Cold Steve Austin, Adam "Edge" Copeland, Amy "Lita" Dumas, Peter "Taz" Senercia and Kurt Angle had a broken neck due to wrestling (they're cool now). But all I'm saying is I love wrestling, It's as real as YOU want it to be! I've bought the SummerSlam cups, Authentic Shirts, posters and just all kinds of shit. It's the only sport I watch and care about. I would love to go to a wrestling event one day but times are rough. Someday, maybe :)

Oh Yea, &

Are you a wrestling fan or no? What's your favorite sport?

Work

idk about you motherfuckers but I fucking HATE work and everything about it. When you're working, you're basically somebody's bitch and I hate that shit. You work your ass off just to have someone not appreciate what you've done -_- Now I know you can make great friends at work but who TF goes to work to make friends? Not I. My goal: win the lottery so I won't have to work anymore. Lazy I know but come on, if you won the lottery, the big one like 325MILLION, would you really still be working?...(I'll wait)......EXACTLY, if you won the lottery, your ass wouldn't still be working. You'd probably be moving to another state or country or at least traveling the world. & if you would still be working, you're dumb. (MY Opinion) what's the point? tell me that. What's really so great about working to which you'll still do it if you won the lottery?...(I'll wait again)........EXACTLY, nothing. I know I'm complaining but FUCK IT, ITS MY BLOG BITCHES! :) Anyway that's my view on working. How do you feel about working? leave a comment!