Relationships. Where the hell do I start. Relationships are fucking tricky. They can be on your side one minute then against you the next. They take a lot of patience to start and even more to maintain. They can drain you, make you think you're crazy. Point blank, they just take a lot out of you but on the other hand, relationships can actually be pleasant, fun, and enjoyable. I'm going to tell you about my past relationships, obviously. The ones that actually mattered. Instead of using their names, I'll just use their initials.
Relationship 1 - This started when I was in the 9th grade, end of 2006. J.E.S and I started to talk on Myspace, yes Myspace lol. The first freaking night we started going out, he told me he loved me -_- so me not knowing any better, I said it back. Throughout the relationship, it seemed he liked to play games, like when we talked on Myspace, he would have his brother message me to "try to get with me" to fucking test me -_- Douche. Me, him, my cousin & her boyfriend at the time went to the movies, first time going with a guy. First make-out session. Fast forward to February, so he broke up with me like over the phone then the next day, I get to school, I'm crying (sad I know) & my friend asked me what was wrong. So when he came near me, she was like no you can't, blah. I'm talking to him like so are we broken up or not, he said no. So later that day, after school, at my grandmothers house, he "officially" broke up with me. He tried to get back with me sometime later but some shady shit was going down so I said no. So RIP to that relationship (December '06 to February '07). Oh yea & he was my first kiss. :/
Relationship 2 - This one started the same year as the breakup from my first relationship, so 2007. Uhm so with this one, E.A.E and I met in school. We didn't really see each other the first month we started going out, why? idfk. I feel like this whole relationship was a waste of time for real. I don't regret anything but still. At the time, my friends were telling me that he wasn't right for me, I need to end it, blah, etc. But of course I didn't listen. I felt I could change him -_- HUGE mistake, I know that now. I have NO power to change anyone but myself. Uhm I know now that I did not love HIM, I loved the IDEA of him. He lasted longer than the first one so I guess I kinda got used to having a boyfriend. I let that shit blindside me :/ Knowing what I know now, I definitely would've broken up with him first. Too much heartache on my end. & I was kinda jealous, still am but *shrugs* So this break-up was the most fucked up out of the 3. He broke up with me over Myspace, yes Myspace again loll That shit came out of NOwhere, I was not expecting it at all. I read the message and INSTANTLY started crying. I messaged my best friend at the time telling her what happened. She had words for him, lol. Thank you girl :) then I told my mom, just cus she would've found out eventually. I freaking hated him for that bullshit ass break-up but honestly thinking back, it needed to be done *shrugs* But I'm so over it now. I think about my relationship with him and laugh, shit's funny now. So RIP to that relationship (July '07 - February '08).
It's amazing how young, dumb and naïve I used to be *shrugs* We gotta grow and learn somehow.
Relationship 3 - This final one started, again the same year as the second break-up so in 2008. This one ready be short as shit cus nothing was wrong with this one, lol. O.R.J and I started talking on the Internet. meetme.com formally known as myyearbook.com. Bad idea I know but times were a little more innocent back then, kind of, not really. So he asked me out over the phone, I said yes and we seem to be inseparable since. Uhm I don't really have anything bad to say about this relationship. Everything was good. He loved me, I loved him & that was that. He was good to me, vice versa. That's about it I guess. We just stopped talking and I guess that was our break-up. But on then myyearbook.com, I wrote to him saying idk what's going on but I cant do this anymore. He didn't get it but called me, I told him about it, so yea that was that. For a minute we were good, it was as if nothing changed. Until time came along, then we really stopped talking. *shrugs* So RIP to that relationship (September '08 - February '09).
What's with me, February and break-ups? haha.
Well that's the stories of my past relationships. I have ZERO kinds of animosity towards my exes. I wish them the complete best with their future endeavors.
IT IS WHAT IT IS.
Relationship 1 - This started when I was in the 9th grade, end of 2006. J.E.S and I started to talk on Myspace, yes Myspace lol. The first freaking night we started going out, he told me he loved me -_- so me not knowing any better, I said it back. Throughout the relationship, it seemed he liked to play games, like when we talked on Myspace, he would have his brother message me to "try to get with me" to fucking test me -_- Douche. Me, him, my cousin & her boyfriend at the time went to the movies, first time going with a guy. First make-out session. Fast forward to February, so he broke up with me like over the phone then the next day, I get to school, I'm crying (sad I know) & my friend asked me what was wrong. So when he came near me, she was like no you can't, blah. I'm talking to him like so are we broken up or not, he said no. So later that day, after school, at my grandmothers house, he "officially" broke up with me. He tried to get back with me sometime later but some shady shit was going down so I said no. So RIP to that relationship (December '06 to February '07). Oh yea & he was my first kiss. :/
Relationship 2 - This one started the same year as the breakup from my first relationship, so 2007. Uhm so with this one, E.A.E and I met in school. We didn't really see each other the first month we started going out, why? idfk. I feel like this whole relationship was a waste of time for real. I don't regret anything but still. At the time, my friends were telling me that he wasn't right for me, I need to end it, blah, etc. But of course I didn't listen. I felt I could change him -_- HUGE mistake, I know that now. I have NO power to change anyone but myself. Uhm I know now that I did not love HIM, I loved the IDEA of him. He lasted longer than the first one so I guess I kinda got used to having a boyfriend. I let that shit blindside me :/ Knowing what I know now, I definitely would've broken up with him first. Too much heartache on my end. & I was kinda jealous, still am but *shrugs* So this break-up was the most fucked up out of the 3. He broke up with me over Myspace, yes Myspace again loll That shit came out of NOwhere, I was not expecting it at all. I read the message and INSTANTLY started crying. I messaged my best friend at the time telling her what happened. She had words for him, lol. Thank you girl :) then I told my mom, just cus she would've found out eventually. I freaking hated him for that bullshit ass break-up but honestly thinking back, it needed to be done *shrugs* But I'm so over it now. I think about my relationship with him and laugh, shit's funny now. So RIP to that relationship (July '07 - February '08).
It's amazing how young, dumb and naïve I used to be *shrugs* We gotta grow and learn somehow.
Relationship 3 - This final one started, again the same year as the second break-up so in 2008. This one ready be short as shit cus nothing was wrong with this one, lol. O.R.J and I started talking on the Internet. meetme.com formally known as myyearbook.com. Bad idea I know but times were a little more innocent back then, kind of, not really. So he asked me out over the phone, I said yes and we seem to be inseparable since. Uhm I don't really have anything bad to say about this relationship. Everything was good. He loved me, I loved him & that was that. He was good to me, vice versa. That's about it I guess. We just stopped talking and I guess that was our break-up. But on then myyearbook.com, I wrote to him saying idk what's going on but I cant do this anymore. He didn't get it but called me, I told him about it, so yea that was that. For a minute we were good, it was as if nothing changed. Until time came along, then we really stopped talking. *shrugs* So RIP to that relationship (September '08 - February '09).
What's with me, February and break-ups? haha.
Well that's the stories of my past relationships. I have ZERO kinds of animosity towards my exes. I wish them the complete best with their future endeavors.
IT IS WHAT IT IS.
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